guyaddicted: HOLLYOAKS

Hi my dear blog,

it's me again...I have to tell you how deep is my obsession for this british show, Hollyoaks..I've found it on yt and now I can't stop watching it, cos I like this show a lot. My fav storyline ever is jJohn Paul and Craig love story..I love this story because of the emotional tension, the pain, the love, the chemistry between the two guys and above all, because I like the two boys (a loooot). I think they are really good players and hot guys (you know Guy is my ideal type, ...with my blu prince, Harry, surely). I enjoyed this story when John Paul split-up with his girlfriend, Hanna, and confessed he is jealous of Craig's girlfriend (Sarah) and he is in love with Craig. Then John Paul watched Craig and Sarah kissed on the dance floor and Sarah told Craig she loved him. John Paul stormed off and Craig soon followed. They both drank too much and Craig told John Paul he was okay with the "gayness." He and John Paul kissed with Craig telling John Paul, "Remember this...I love you, I love you."I love this part .

UnfortunatelyHannah saw them and told Sarah and the rest of the school. The following day they were the talk of the school and John Paul told everyone he was gay. Craig was furious with his coming out in front of their classmates, since by association people thought he must have been gay, too. This caused Craig's bullying by their schoolmate Sonny to get worse, but he told everyone he was not gay and that John Paul came on to him. Craig called John Paul a 'queer'. After punching Craig back, John Paul ran off tearfully. Then Craig apologised to John Paul but John Paul didn't accept it. Time passes and Craig and John Paul are still not talking to each other. After Craig defends John Paul to Sonny and telling John Paul he doesn't mind him being gay, John Paul said he would think about being friends again.

Craig's jealous side began to show when he, Sarah and Hannah saw John Paul kissing his new boyfriend Spike. Craig blames his mood on exam stress. Craig grows increasingly hostile toward Spike explaining that he is looking out for his best mate. In a fit of spite, Hannah throws the fact that John Paul is in love with Craig in Spike's face. This causes a row between John Paul and Spike where John Paul admits he had a "school boy crush" on Craig, but that he has never felt for anyone like he feels for Spike. The argument ends in a passionate kiss in front of everyone at the pub. Then Craig's bitching Spike and John Paul is disappointed and reminds him Spike is his boyfriend, adding he has grown a lot in the last few months and doesn't fancy Craig any more.

Later, Craig has trouble concentrating during an exam. He storms out of the exam and arrives at John Paul's house, where he continues to insult Spike. Craig finally lets his emotions get the better of him. Tearing up, he questions John Paul's feelings for him. John Paul admits that he still loves Craig and more so than Spike. Craig asks if he and Spike have slept together and when John Paul confirms that they have, Craig admits that he can't stop thinking about John Paul and kisses him. They end up sleeping together. Later on, Craig rises clearly angry, dresses quickly, calls John Paul a "faggot" when he tries to touch Craig and then storms out of the house, leaving John Paul confused and upset.

Paul asks if he's had any time to get his head around what happened between them and Craig says he doesn't know what John Paul is talking about. Time later John Paul and Spike celebrate their two-month relationship. Craig repeatedly calls until finally John Paul has to answer. Craig wants to see him now, so John Paul leaves Spike. John Paul becomes even more troubled when Craig gives him a warm hug as soon as he arrives. Then Craig tells John Paul he realized how much he means to him, he tells him they'll be best mates. Realising nothing has changed, John Paul leaves upset, telling Craig to leave him alone, if he wants to pretend they never had sex, it's fine, but he doesn't want to be involved in his life anymore. But later, Craig turns up at the McQueens' and enters John Paul's bedroom. John Paul asks Craig to leave, but Craig refuses, closes the door behind him and starts kissing John Paul passionately. John Paul gets lost in the moment and they end up sleeping together again. Later on, Craig disentangles himself from a sleeping John Paul and looks at him confusedly, but affectionately, before he leaves.

A few weeks later Craig tells John Paul that he can't stop thinking about him, and although he loves Sarah, he loves John Paul too. Craig then leads John Paul upstairs where they once again sleep together. A few weeks pass with Craig still confused about his sexuality. He and John Paul both agree to split with their partners to be with each other. However, Craig doesn't live up to his part of the bargain, leaving John Paul upset. Craig explains that he can't do it now because of the state that Sarah is in. John Paul tells him to be with his girlfriend, they kiss, leaving John Paul even more hurt.

Realising he needs to get away from things, Craig books a last-minute holiday on the internet, and sets off with Sarah, unaware of John Paul chasing the cab as it drives off but Sarah heard John Paul call out to them. While Craig is away, John Paul writes a letter to Craig's mum, explaining everything about their affair, but once he's posted it, gets cold feet about it and enlists the help of Spike to help get it back.
Craig and Sarah return from their holiday and explain to John Paul about the great time they had. Later on in John Paul's room, Craig tells John Paul that he thought about him loads while he was away. An angry John Paul shows Craig the letter that he had written to Craig's mum. Craig gets angry and John Paul shouts for him to leave.

Later, at the McQueen house, Craig tells John Paul that ending the relationship is the worst answer. John Paul shouts at Craig and knocks an iron onto his own foot. Craig jokingly asks if John Paul wants him to kiss it better. They laugh and kiss, and are later seen having slept together. Craig tells John Paul, whilst in bed that he was going to dump Sarah, but John Paul tells Craig not to ruin the moment and they embrace once again, both looking blissfully happy with each other.

In another ep. while Craig is on his shift, John Paul comes in the pub to see Craig. Unaware that Spike is watching, John Paul and Craig get quite close and Craig asks John Paul if he'd like to come upstairs. John Paul accepts. Craig and John Paul are yet again in bed together and have exchanged 'I Love You's' when they hear Jack coming up the stairs, so John Paul hides under the covers.Craig is terrified Spike knows about him and John Paul, while John Paul is uncomfortable as he watches Craig and Sarah get close to each other and is determined to have fun, although unknown to him Craig spends much of the exam celebrations watching John Paul longingly wishing he was with him.
However, desperate not to be outed, Craig plays on John Paul's sense of chivalry and tells him that after what Sarah has already gone through with her family, their relationship should remain a secret. John Paul is persuaded to go and talk to Spike but wonders if Craig is aware how much this is hurting him. Spike reassures John Paul he won't blab but warns him Craig does not really love him. JP appreciated his concern but tells Spike he and Craig love each other and not to ruin things for him.

Suspecting there is another girl, Sarah demands to know who she is. Craig is clearly upset and about to tell the truth at last when he chickens out last minute and latches on to the only thing he thinks a girl wants to hear... "Will You Marry Me?! Craig asked Sarah to keep the truth of their engagement a secret. In the meantime he continued his relationship with John Paul, without telling him about his proposal. The final straw came when Sarah told Frankie about the engagement, without telling him. Craig was initially upset, mainly because he had not told the truth to John Paul. When John Paul arrived at a party thrown by Frankie and discovered the truth, he dragged Craig upstairs and demanded he choose: him or Sarah? In response, Craig began to kiss John Paul passionately. Still not convinced about Craig's commitment, John Paul texted Sarah on Craig's phone and asked Sarah to come upstairs. She read the text and came upstairs and walked in on Craig and John Paul kissing, leaving Sarah horrified and Craig speechless.
Craig immediately attempted to convince Sarah that it was a misunderstanding. That he hadn't being kissing John Paul. Sarah didn't believe him.

then John Paul calls him just as he leaves and Craig answers, but John Paul appears too upset to speak and hangs up before saying anything, much to Craig's anguish.Craig responds by saying what he done was stupid and unforgivable. Craig and Sarah have a comparison and he says he still loves Sarah and meant everything he ever said, but that he really loves John Paul and that he wants to be with him, saying he at least owes it to her to say it to her himself. Sarah is devastated, and tries begging him but his resolve his firm - he wants John Paul. John Paul was devastated by this, thinking wrongly that Craig had let him down again. Craig knocks on the McQueen's door desperate to talk to John Paul, but despite his pleas, John Paul wont talk to him. Craig returned home dejected. The next day Jake is taunting Craig and telling him he is disgusting whilst Frankie is pressuring Craig to get Sarah back. Craig finally shouts in frustration that he doesn't want Sarah, to his brother's disgust. As Steph walks in on the confrontation oblivious to what has happened, Frankie insists that Craig loves Sarah. Finally pushed too far he shouts at his mother that he loves John Paul, not Sarah! Later, Craig was walks with his family in the village when they run into the McQueens. While the Deans and the McQueens face off, OK Corral style and set to bicker amongst themselves, Craig and John Paul have just gazed silenThe two talk and John Paul is shocked when Craig tells him honestly that he wants him and not Sarah and that he loves him and doesn't care who knows it.He then asked John Paul to leave with him and come to Dublin and start a new life together, both of them completely happy that they will run off together and be with each other.

At the airport however, Craig tried to convince his brother that he isn't gay and still likes girls, but he fell in love with John Paul because he cannot help who he falls in love with. John Paul soon asked Craig to kiss him while in line to get their luggage checked in. Craig could not bring himself to kiss John Paul, much to John Paul's distress. John Paul said that he loved Craig with all his heart, but he deserved more than being with a man who could not even display mere affection towards him in public. He ended their relationship and reluctantly walked away. Craig said to John Paul: "Don't leave me" but John Paul appeared not to hear him.
Craig began to leave for his flight, but turned back, running down the escalator to try to find John Paul and convince him that he wanted to be with him. Unfortunately for Craig, John Paul had already left. Craig reluctantly boarded the plane in tears... oh I'm still crying...